death

Never before has it seemed so close to me
Looming over me like an unwanted storm
It's coming closer and closer
I cant control it
I'm like a little girl, paralyzed with fear at whatever is hiding beneath my bed, knowing if I try to move or scream it might get me too
First it took raul
Then frances
And then it got lilly and ricky and albert and jenny and cathy
In its clutches now is my emilia
How did this happen?
I can’t move
I can’t scream
I can’t control it
And i can't stop it
I can barely breathe

Oh God, please make it stop!!!
Time is against me; there’s less every day
Please help me
Please make it go away
Why is this happening?
It takes what you love and leaves only pain that will never quite go away
I don't know how much more i can take
How can this be part of life?
It's so scary, ugly and undignified
I can’t see much more
Maybe now i'll sleep...

dreams

So i had this dream last night
I dreamed i chopped off my toes with a big chef knife
I thought to myself, "eh, i don't need these anyway"
I was amazed that it did hurt or not bleed at all
Funny thing is, I chopped onions up yesterday while making dinner
So i guess i was in the mood to chop

And then the other day i fell asleep in class
But right before I was thinking really evil thoughts about this girl i don't like
Then i dreamed about her, right there in the middle of class, as a trail of saliva slowly formed itself into a pool on my desk
In my dream we fought over something really petty, which well represents our relationship in real life

Be amazed, oh faithful reader
As these have originated from an author who rarely dreams

The moral of this story is: real life events can have significant bearing on one’s subconscious thoughts

Nadia & Amirali

That’s my friend Nadia and her husband Amirali. They were married on September 3, 2006. I was lucky enough to be there and I wish them all the best in the future. Amirali is a great guy, and I'm sure he will take care of Nadia. I have to say, it was really nice to see two people so much in love. I saw them go through so much, and each time they would look into each others eyes they would somehow find the strength to keep going. It was truly beautiful. I guess if she has to get married, and if she has to leave the country, it should be to him, and it should be with him just because he loves her so much.

What it means to me

dis‧ap‧point: to fail to fulfill the expectations or wishes of

Disappointment is like when i wish you would call but you don't
It's like when i see the unspoken in your eyes, but it never makes it to your lips

You wrapped me up in who you are and now i just wish you were around
Somehow you've become a mystery to me...I feel as though I don't know you enough, but i wish i did
You were gone in an instant, with no hope of return

Disappointed is me each time we talk yet you do nothing about what i know is in your heart

To me, disappointment is you