side by side

We laid in bed together
side by side
Physically so close but emotionally so far
I had so much to say
You had so much to do
Your desire to help me as strong as mine to help you, but
instead we laid in silence
Contemplating what was, and wishing for things that were not
Hoping that fate might grant us what we wished for
But not having the strength to carry it through
It was harder on you than me, yet
My mind turned it over and over
My heart enclosed in pain so thick it dripped down and infected the rest of me
My body strained to the point of physical illness
Justice seems to no longer exist
Freedom now a cruel joke
Which left only heartache as the constant in this sick, sad world.