Turmoil

Confusion whist I was away
betrayal in a most brutal manner
That misery which leads only to hostility
Memories once left behind struggle to resurface
unwanted, unwelcome they invade the quietest of thoughts
Questions never asked now spring from the confusion that was once a mind
They that would never foresee
And the enemy lurking in the hearts of man, seeking to corrupt
what was once so pure
How deeply seeded suspicion can be
Her love never failing, though often neglected, often ill-treated
Her devotion profuse, abundant…excess?
provokes in me a fear to love
Tis all around, unavoidable
The painful predicament propinquity
A question of reality
This besides unreasonable, unfair
The condition perpetual

Daddy

When I was a little girl you used to carry me on your shoulders
You told me you would always love me
When I was a little girl you used to dance with my Mother, your wife
You vowed before God and man that you’d love her until death separated you

I have to admit I thought you were my hero
I believed you could save me from any danger
I believed in you

Maybe when I was growing up I was a mess, but
my love was constant
my loyalty never wavered
and I was blessed with the pure and unconditional love only a child can have

And while pain now grips my heart and wont let go
And fear has found inside of me it's resting place
And though I would’ve defended you against any enemy
I can't protect you from yourself

My heart never questioned, not once...not you
Not until now

I thought you would always be that hero I looked to
I thought I would always have you
I feel as though I’ve been betrayed.
Didn’t you say you’d always be there?
Didn’t you swear to be true?
to me…
To her???

My pain is rivaled only by shock
Forced to hear things, to see things
Those things make me not want to love you
I love you Daddy
Why are you doing this?

I want to run away from this
I wish it would all go away
I just don’t understand
Why? Why? Why?

Suddenly I’m a little girl again
Except now there is no one to rescue me